What I’m doing now #

Sat Sep 19, 2024

The longer I continue with psychotherapy, meditation, breathing exercises, and almost a year without alcohol, the better I begin to understand myself, what I want, what makes me alive, and where I play a role that is not mine (through the inertia of decades of unconscious living).

But with this awareness comes a personal crisis: I no longer want (can't!) to be my old self, “me v1.0.” Yet, the challenge is that I don’t know how to make a living as "me v2.0." This version of me feels more authentic, but I’m still figuring out how to translate that into the way I work and live and make money.

There's some sort of hard reset going on.

To make a long story short, this year I found the curiosity and motivation to dive into learning code. I'm currently building some indie tools, and from there, we'll see where my curiosity takes me.

Before this, I used to think coding was out of my reach (fixed vs. growth mindset). I've always identified as a designer, believing that there were technical people for that kind of work while my role was focused on creating little buttons and colors.

Thanks to Derek for the idea for this page, and for giving us a chance to reflect on the current moment.